Monday, January 28, 2013

Gasp!!

It has been right at half a month since I last posted. I hate when I get so busy I can't blog. Anyway, here is what is going on....

So I saw 211.4 on the scale last week. That is a total loss of 5.6 lbs so far!! I haven't weighted since, but when I saw that number on the scale, I started to cry. Call me crazy, or an emotional wreck, but I haven't seen a number under 212.0 lbs in a year. So to finally break below that number for me is a huge deal!

So I had a good day, I saw the number that made all my hard work worth it so far. But then I had a crap weekend. I am sure I have gained back some of that weight. But this morning, I am back at it again. I am logging my food again via MyFitnessPal. And we will be restarting the 30 Day Shred this evening. And hopefully all will work out and I can start the C25K either this week or next. I've really become motivated again. I seem to get down for a few days, then I feel like crap, so I get motivated again. So looks like I will be working my butt off.

How are you doing if you are working towards a healthier life?

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Small Improvements

Alright Interent...I know you guys are just dying for an update. Well let me just let you know what is going on in my life.

Today was Day 4 of the 30 Day Shred for me. And I must say that even though I am sore, and I still yelling at the TV, I can feel some improvements...That is right. I said I could feel improvements.

Here in Chatt, TN It has been raining non stop for several days. And while it is raining,  even about to rain, my knees are just simply killing me. I noticed today that I had not had knee pain for 2 days!! And that is 2 days of some serious rain. That in itself is a huge relief.

Next, I can feel my stomach getting smaller. When I look in the mirror, I see no difference, but I can feel that my stomach is lighter. There is not a whole bunch of weight loss to make it seem like a lot, but when I feel like I am getting thinner, it is a HUGE DEAL to me!!

I also made it through my workout with much more ease. I still have to do the modified version of basically everything, but I got through it with less stops, and I completed more of the exercise. Tonight I did 40 modified push ups and 2 normal push ups. When I started this, I could do about 5 modified push ups and about 0 normal ones. That is a big bonus for me!!

And lastly. You know that feeling when your jeans slide on a little bit easier???? Yeah, I didn't before this morning!!!!! I got up and started to get dressed. When I pulled on my jeans, they were still tight, but they went on a little easier, an I felt like they fit better as well.

I currently haven't changed weight wise.
My planks are the same and so are the wall sits.

Keep doing what you are doing guys!!!!

C.

Monday, January 14, 2013

No matter if it is 1 lb or 100 lbs, progress is progress.

So, after thinking about what I saw on the Biggest Loser this past week, I think I have discovered something about myself, and no it isn't the need to be on a TV show. Let me explain.

*This is my story with my struggle with my weight. I am so embarrassed that I have gotten to where I am, and it is hard for me to write this, but I know it is about time.*

Every year, since I was in college, my New Year's Resolution has always been to lose weight, to get to my goal weight and maintain it. And every year I failed horribly. I actually gained weight. When I got engaged. My goal was to be a size 8 by the wedding, and I ended up a size 12. Instead of losing a size, I gained one. And from there it has all been down hill. When I got engaged, I was a size 5/6-7/8. Half way through the engagement I went to a size 7/8-9-10, and by the wedding I was a size 12. By our first anniversary, I was a size 14, and by the beginning of 2012 (just 2 months later) I was a size 16. I swore to myself a long time ago that I would never see 220 lbs on the scale. Some people might ask, "Why not 200 lbs? Why such an odd number?" Well, in my family, we are all larger except my twig thin little sister. And I knew once I put my freshman 15 on that I would probably hit 200 in my lifetime. I knew once I started gaining weight that unless I changed that I would see that number quickly. And I knew I never wanted to hit 225 lbs. I don't know why I picked 220 lbs, maybe because I felt like that 5 lbs between 220 and 225 lbs would be a wake up call for me. Honestly I don't know why I picked 220 lbs, but I did.

When I was in high school, I was in the marching band, color guard to be exact, so I was really active. I was between a 3/4-5/6, and I was really comfortable with myself. I saw girls that were much smaller than me, and for the most part, that didn't bother me. I stayed that size until after I graduated in 2007 in GA. In August 2007, when I started college in TN, I knew the Freshman 15 were coming, so I picked a parking garage that was far enough away from all my classes that I had to walk up a hill. And I got lucky and had classes that were on the top floors of most all the buildings, so I had stairs to climb. I didn't gain a single pound that first semester and I was happy. When I moved from TN back to GA, the college I went to was no where near as big, and had a lot less stairs for me to climb. I still did my best to park as far away as I could from the school, but by the end of that semester I had packed on 15 lbs. I did my best to stay active. I worked 3 jobs at one point, one as a host for a restaurant, one as a waitress, and one as a home health care aid. They were all very active, but I soon realized that I was eating a bunch of junk and at late hours of the night.

When I started dating the guy before C, all we would do is go out to eat and sit on the couch and watch TV. I blame most of my problems on that, not on him, but that time in my life. When I started dating C in June 2009, I was doing the best I could to not eat so much crap and not eat at all hours of the night. When he proposed August 31, 2009 (our love story to come soon. <3), I was okay with my weight. I had packed on a few pounds, but I figured that since C was so active, it would help me shed them. While we were more active that I had been with previous boyfriends, I didn't realize that my metabolism had slowed down so much and losing the weight just wasn't happening. I got really discouraged as the wedding neared. When family stresses started, that is when I think my defining moment came. While C and I struggled with family issues and multiple views on us getting married, I turned to food. I would eat junk food and eat when ever I wanted and how much I wanted. Food was my comfort. I felt like I could control that part of my life when it seemed that I couldn't control anything else in my life.

About 3 months before our wedding, I went to get my dress sized. Instead of being able to take the dress in like I had hoped, they had to take it out. I knew right then and there that I was in trouble. Here I was getting ready to marry the man of my dreams, and I had basically doubled in size since he and I first started dating. C had assured me on several occasions that he loved me just the way I was and always would. Before our wedding, I hit the 200 lb mark, and I cried. I cried, and then once again turned to food. It was a never ending cycle for me. I saw no end in sight. I had given up hope. When we got married on October 23, 2010, It was amazing. I was so happy to be marrying the man God had planned for me. But internally I wasn't happy with myself. I knew how horrible I looked, and that was only confirmed with the wedding pictures.

When C and I moved from GA to TN in February 2011, we moved in with my dad. It was a quick move, and we didn't have much of an option as far as living arrangements. We all three got to the point where we were going to the local high school and walking the track. I was up to about 205 lbs. As we walked most every night of the week, I noticed that it got easier and easier and I walked further and further. I even got to where I was running a few laps. And I dropped 10 lbs. I kicked sodas and even junk food. I felt good about the weight that I was losing and how I was feeling. Then we stopped going. And I added those 10 lbs back on, and once again I got discouraged and I went straight to food for comfort. As the year went on, I was slowly gaining half a pound here, half a pound there. By the beginning of 2012, I was at 212 lbs.

C and I moved out of my dads house at the end of January in 2012. I was 214 lbs then. I had made the New Year's Resolution to once again lose weight, and in a month I had put on 2 lbs. All throughout 2012 my weight stayed between 212 and 216 lbs. I wasn't eating really healthy, but I wasn't eating crap as much either. C and I got to where we were walking and doing some exercising during 2012 but nothing major. Then when we were moving from thee apartments back into my dad's house since he had gotten married and moved out, we ended up working on the house every night to get it ready for the move, and we were eating fast food every night.

By the end of 2012, I was at a steady 216.0-216.8 lbs. I knew that I couldn't take it anymore. I knew I had to change. I weighed January 1, 2013 and came in at 216.0. C and I took our first alone vacation that weekend. We went on a cruise and ate all kinds of food. When we got back I weighed 217.0 my New Year's Resolution was off to a rocky start. I then started up my MyFitnessPal again, and started my weight at 217.0 because that was what I was at. I watched my weight, and I what I was eating. C and I walked one night, and then the rain came. After talking to some friends, C and I made the choice to start the 30 Day Shred.

I am proud to announce that today...2 weeks into my journey, I weigh 213.4 lbs! And I am sore as ever! My goal is to lose between 7-8 lbs a month, but now I want to re look at that. My goal weight is not a number per say, but more of a feel and look. It is about being healthy. 135 lbs would put me right in the middle of the BMI scale for my height, and I would like to be there, but it isn't important that I hit that number.

What I feel about my weight getting rid of journey, is this...

The years that I struggled with losing weight, it is because I wasn't ready to lose it. I struggled with several things from my past over the past few years, and I can honestly say that today I am ready to lose the weight. I am ready to let the chains that have held me back go. I am so ready for this! And I am glad that it took me so long because I had to get to the point where I felt me self worth was greater than what I had been thinking in the past. Now, I am confident that I will get this weight off, and I will do it the healthy way. So if it takes me 2 years to do it, then I will! I will get healthy for me!

I lacked motivation and accountability in years past, and if you are on a get fit journey and need motivation or accountability, I am here! Together we can do this!!!!

Good luck to everyone!!

C.



























Sunday, January 13, 2013

2 weeks in...

So tomorrow I will officially be 2 weeks into my "new life" or something like that. So far I am down 2.8 lbs, which isn't where I want to be at, but it sure is close enough. So I am thankful for that.

Day 2 of the 30 day shred was a little easier. I didn't have to stop as much, but boy am I sore. This weekend I have been making the healthy choice. And I am so proud of myself!! I sure hope that anyone else who is working on their health is doing well.

I'm off to finish a little laundry and then go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day!!

C.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

30 Day Shred...

I figured I would post this really quick whiel I wait on C to get everything set up...

Thanks to Mommy On A Mission and It's All About The Savings, I am starting the 30 Day Shred tonight. I am hoping that I don't fall over dead... I will let you guys know how it goes!!

Tonight I was really fighting my ugre to call Chili's and order chips and salas and a burger. C and I had already decided that was what we were eating, and then I changed my mind and decided on a Weight Watchers recipie and veggies. I was pretty darn proud of myself. :) For my water gaol today, I am at about 75 oz with 33 oz left to go. I am pretty sure I will hit that goal tonight!

C.

Saturdays...

Sleeping in on Saturday = WIN!!!! Sleeping in on Saturday when you have 3,452,576,476,356 things to do = FAIL!! Getting up early when you have 3,452,576,476,356 things to do, but updating your blog instead = ???

Guess which one I am doing??? Ah yes, while C sleeps, I am up and updating said blog and catching up on those I follow. Anyway. Eventually I will do a post cruise post, but I don't feel like dragging out my laptop, so it will have to wait.

Good news though!! Update on my weight getting rid of...

Jan 1 2013 - 216.0 lbs
Jan 7 2013 - 217.0 lbs
Jan  9 2013 - 215.4 lbs
Jan 11 2013 - 215.2 lbs

So I haven't lost any more than that, and I know it is only 1.8 lbs, but I am proud of that!!! After all progress is progress no matter how small!! Oh and don't forget I was on a cruise will all you can get ice cream and pizza (oh how I miss that), and then C and I ended up with pizza 2 nights this week because we didn't want to cook. So I will be starting back with my diet a little bit better this week. And with the rain that has put a stop to my walking because the rain bothers my knee. (and yes that does actually happen.) So I am hoping that the rain holds off and I can get my walking in at some point today.

But for now, I start my day off with Key Lime pie flavored yogurt, half a large grapefruit and 24 oz of water. I haven't hit my water goal yet. I have to drink 108 oz of water, and as much as I love water, I just haven't been able to drink it.


C.

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

So now on to 2013...

Yeah, I have posted some of my resolutions. (You can read them here.) But it is the actually working on these resolutions that is quite difficult. I mean don't get me wrong, I really want to complete my resolutions, and I will make a plan to start them, it is just actually the following through with them that is the problem.

So any-who, on to the real post. I have officially started "Project Fitness CML 2013" I'd love to have everyone follow along with me and my journey. It isn't a weight lose journey because I don't plan to ever find the weight I lose again. It is more of a weight-get-rid-of journey, but that a lot to say and doesn't roll off the tongue as well.

So lets get down to the ugly side of this...January 1, 2013, I weighed myself so I would know what my starting point was and just how far I had to go. So drum roll....216.0 lbs!!! Now if that isn't a slap in the face, I don't know what is!! I always swore that I would never see 220 lbs once I hit 200 lbs, and by golly, I won't!!! I am determined!

So tonight, tonight was the first real night of working on my fitness. As in previous posts, you can see that C and I went on a cruise where there was 24 hour pizza and ice cream. Not a good way t start out a diet!! But the vacation was long overdue, so I can deal with it. I weighed myself this morning, and low and behold, I am at 217.0 lbs. So only gaining a pound because of the cruise is okay with me. In years past, it has been a lot more.

Tonight included a healthy dinner of brown rice, grilled chicken and veggies along with 24 oz of water. Now I just need to drink about 83 more oz to hit my goal for the day...I don't see that happening. But I didn't even finish what was on my plate. I got the feeling that I was full, and stopped eating. Point for me!! And after dinner, C and I took Chaco out for a walk. We walked about 2/3 of a mile in our subdivision, and it isn't flat either. There are steep hills, or slight hills the entire route we walked. but we walked at about a 2.5 mph rate, so I am feeling pretty decent about that since I didn't think I could make it more than one lap! Tomorrow if the rain holds off, C and I will be up at 5:30 am to walk a mile, then do some crunches, push ups, jumping jacks, planks, lunges, etc.

Not only am I pushing myself, but I am also going to be pushing C. I am hoping that I can stay motivated this year and finally get rid of the weight I am wanting to get rid of. During this journey I will also be reading "Reshaping It All" by Candace Cameron Bure, or as I like to refer to her as "DJ Tanner" (what can I say, I still love Full House)

But it is time for me to read a chapter of my book, then head to bed so I can get some much needed sleep!!


Thursday, January 3, 2013

A New Experience

So C and I have been married for a little over 2 years now. In that time, we have been on several vacations. We have been to the beach, and on cruises, and to Gatlinburg. But in that 2 years, our only "alone" vacation has been our honeymoon, and a weekend trip to Gatlinburg in August of 2012. So since October of 2010, we have been basically with family when we go on vacation. Now I am not complaining at all. I love my family, and I love traveling with them. We always have fun no matter what we do.

But that is beside the point. The point I am trying to make is this...C and I are on our way (or were...as I was typing C said "Oh crap!!! We forgot the hanging bag" so we are turning around to go get it. Lucky for us, we are only about an hour down the road) to Port Canaveral FL. We booked a last minute cruise to the Bahamas!!!! And trust me, it could not have come at a better time. With all the issues that have been going on in our life, a get away with no cell phones or email or Facebook is just perfect!!! I am so thankful we were able to get this and take off!!!

So be looking for a Post Cruise blog entry!!!!!

I'm headed to the islands where I can lay on the beach and drink fruity drinks with rum and little umbrellas!!!

I'm going to try to get my Random Friday blog up before we leave tomorrow, but no promises!!!


C.

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